March 19, 2007 - 9:06 p.m.

Here we are at the last stretch of familiar road where we know what kind of scenery to expect when we look out of the window. I never pictured myself after JC life. And in less than 21 month's time I'll be stepping into the unknown and unthought of, unsure of what I want, unsure of my dreams, unsure of what I'm good at.Always thought I was stil young and there's still plenty of time before I have to start worrying.Can I even make it into a local university? Sheesh. That's a really scary thought. Dont wanna grow up dont wanna grow up dont wanna grow up. But that's merely the childish me desperately trying to hold for dear life to the last strand of familiarity.I haven't really achieved much in my past 16 years on planet Earth that I can next time look back and be proud of. So I urge you youngsters, *gestures sagely* while you're still young, be daring and go forth and work hard to pursue your dreams goals! Homg. Teh cheesiness. But not untrue I think. It's just that even though the older generations have been sharing their past experiences telling us time and time again to make full use of opportunities presented to us and don't procarstinate and regret later when the chance slips through your fingers before you know it, but the thing is, humans seem to be very stubborn creatures hence the many a time, the message fails to hit home for many until it has already happened.Humans ONLY really cherish what they have lost.Sometimes you get lucky and get a second chance, but sometimes not. The few who go all out and give their best are actually the ones who will be successful at the end of the day, but while they give their 101% passionately, the other majority will be lounging around thinking that the few passionate ones are being very silly. Unfortunately I belonged to the majority lounging around. Here you go, a full dose of teenage angst and emo-ness. I actually don't really look forward to my birthday this year cos well, I don't want to grow up! Haha. But, I think it's not yet too late. Shall try and be more proactive and try as many new things as I can while I still have the license to be crazy and heck care adult worries and propriety. Too many a time, I have been too scared to try. One day I'm going to look back at this entry and laugh at the cheesiness and childishness.Even now as I'm typing this I'm already feeling silly for emo-ing.Actually I started emo-ing becuase I stumbled on this J3 senior's blog when I was trying to look for the school library's website so that I can renew my books online. The J3 senior was from 3I too.Haha. :D

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