May 13, 2007 - 10:17 p.m.
Today is mother's day. ^^ I feel abit bad, cos my two sisters made cards for my mummy and I didnt. This is the first year that i didn't make a card for my mummy. I feel like I've outgrown card making. My mum didnt say anything about me not making a card, but i think she was abit disappointed. >< I bought brownies from Amara hotel for her cos we saw them having a sale after doing flagday yesterday and we tried then samples and they were really good. So I bought two boxes for my mummy and shared the cost with my sisters. Next time when I grow up I wanna be a filial daughter and buy alot of things for my parents! (: (ok thats a childish jo for you but that's what I aim to do! xD)I love you mom!<3
I've been feeling weird and detached and emotionless for the whole day today again. Seems like something's been hollowed out. Haha. It's not from fatigue or over exhaustion I think, cos I tried to sleep in the afternoon couldnt fall asleep on the sofa. When people talked to me, I replied normally, not ap or in a grouchy manner. But when it didnt seem heartfelt when I laughed or smiled. It feels damn weird. Just so calm and serene and detached. Dunno whether it's a sign of stress or teenage hormone induced emoness or depression of just plain over exhaustion. Haha. Supposed to be doing pw now. I should get back to it. And econs is damn screwd up for me. Test on tues and I didnt listen for all of the market failure and government intervention lectures. >< Argh.
I want it to rain. I like the smell of rain ^^ And the sound of rain too. Somehow I am comforted by the rhythmic pitter patter fall of raindrops. Maybe because its a constant rhythm which is naturally comforting be it for humans or animals. Like when you stroke animals repeatedly or when you pat an infant to lull him or her to sleep, the constant rhythm soothes them and calms them down. Something to do with liking familarity and fearing the insercure and unknown I guess. hoho philosophical teenage musings. or when looked from another angle- emoness. Hah. Well I'd better be getting back at my work. So long.
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